Gestation Period

15 years post divorce.
1.  the divorce was long and conflictual.
2.  my career in negative cutting tanked.
3.  I moved 6 times.
4. I bought 3 houses and sold 3 houses.
5. I cried a bazillion tears.
6. I had more one date dates than I care to count.
7. I lived with my parents for 2.5 years.
8. I cried more tears than I thought possible.
9. One daughter graduated from college.
10.  One daughter is going to college.
11. I walked more miles than I thought possible.
12. I drank a lot of red wine.
13. I read a lot of books.
14. I fell in love with a Benedictine Monestary.
15.  I went skydiving.
16. I climbed Mt. Whitney.
17.  I fell in love with someone who...well...I don't know.
18.  I was frustrated, angry, confused etc.
19. My parents died 33 days apart.
20.  I was first successor trustee of my parents estate and took care of it all.
21.  I had issues with my siblings.
22.  I resolved the issues.
23.  I was strong.
24.  I can count on one hand the number of times someone did something for me.
25.  I am god damn tired of being alone, of being strong...I just want to be a girl.
26.  I worked damn hard at becoming real, authentic, of going deep into the mystery of me. 
27.  And I am now gestating all of this and on the cusp of moving into a new life.