I have been busy. And I don't like busy. I moved to the desert to walk and create and listen to the silence. This year has been busy. And the last month especially.
I had my party. It was a huge success and even the universe cooperated by giving us some awesome summer rain along with thunder and lightening.
I am thinking about distractions and addictions because seriously right now I feel like I am addicted to distraction and keeping busy. And I want to jump out of my skin. I feel like I am running as fast as I can and I can't stop. This weekend I am going on a zipline with my friend Phyllis, the next day I am going to an ordination of one of the monks, then the very same night I am going to a party. The the next weekend I am busy too. I don't do busy. I am an introvert. I don't know why I am on this roll. Don't get me wrong, I am doing things I want to do with people I like and love...but...hmmm....I still feel crazy. Maybe it's about getting old and death. As we know, death continues to be a force in my mind.
I have a theory. I think God devises crap for us to do when he wants us to get out of the way of our lives. When God needs to take charge, he distracts us so he can do his work. Ok, that is really just a theory...but...I believe it.
So, what am I being distracted from? A few nights ago I dreamed I was pregnant with 2 babies. They were conceived at different times and one was ready to be born. But it could not be born because it was tangled in the cord of the second baby that was not ready to be born yet...hmmm. Something very interesting about this.
Oye and I am tired of it all, this feeling of being on drugs. I hope it ends soon.
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